Aloha Served Daily

Obviously, one of us are getting hurt. Probably more than the other. Sometimes I wanna just let you go, but I can’t. Seems like every time I try to, you sense it and pull me back. All it takes is a simple question or just a comment and someone gets upset. How long more are we gonna do this to each other? Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad we are both still in each other’s life. But got damn does it hurt sometimes! You never notice cause we say everything through text and you never know if I’m telling you everything or not. It’s hard. I’m done hoping and wishing we were still together, cause obviously that was just once in our lives that it would happen. Who knows what God has planned for us now. Maybe we’ll be together in the future again..just maybe. But obviously we won’t and can’t be together right now. All I can say is, that it does suck at times and it affects me more than you. I wish I didn’t care, but it’s so hard. Or I wish I was a guy so I didn’t have to care or have any feelings at all. 
And obviously all that I’m saying right now is out of anger and hurt. You should know me better than that, but sometimes I feel like you don’t even know me anymore. We’ve changed so much.. Sometimes I don’t even know who you are. But I hope that me and you can stay “close” cause I know thats all that we’ll ever be.